Take a look in the mirror
and see the bigger picture
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
Nobody is an island
We are part of an environment
Nas (Feat. Mykel)
Why do those that leave us leave a carbon footprint on us like we will never forget them? To this day at the Big Red Machine I still believe this person I call P!NK made the right decision in deciding to leave the job she had. I miss her dearly to this day as I had many great conversations with her. I remember when I first saw her, my buddy Gump. was training her and I didn’t think much of her because she was training with Gump and I couldn’t really say anything to her. As I kept seeing her, I felt disgusted with her because in my opinion at that time I judged her based on the fact that she had all these tattoos all over her body and I just felt she was an outcast. In the coming weeks I noticed she worked with the recovery team constantly and she was getting trained by one of my buddies, Joe. I still felt a resentment towards her because I had that judgment towards her that she was a nobody who was weird and had a different agenda than mine. But something strange happened, I remember a couple days before hand I went to see “Inglorious Bastards” with two friends from work and I thought the movie was great with the acting and the action. This is when P!NK decided to ask me one Saturday if I had seen any movies lately. I told her about the movie and she agreed with me and instantly I thought we had clicked. One of my friends, CJ, came up to me and he thought I was going in for the kill but the truth is I just wanted to be friends with P!NK because she was so cool just from talking with her. Over the next few weeks I started talking to her more about everything possible. I could pour my heart out to her about my family issues, money issues, world issues, friendship issues, political issues, and I thought this girl was either crazy for talking to me or she just had a lot of heart. I later came to the conclusion that she had a lot of heart because she was always mysterious. For example, she told me about one day she wanted to get pregnant with her boyfriend but one day she told me it ended up happening which surprised me. I didn’t know what to think because she didn’t seem like the mother type but I believe she always wanted to be a mother to a child at some point in her life. What surprised though was one day she just disappeared and I wondered where she had headed. I was worried and I never wanted to reign on anything that was going on in her life but I was concerned because I saw something good in her that I hadn’t seen in anyone else. Low and behold, she ended up coming back a few days after black friday and I was reluctant to ask where she had been. She told me that she had gotten rid of the baby and to this day I don’t know the full truth about that whole ordeal but I will reserve judgment until then. I remember the great conversations we would have about life and the things I was learning in class about ethical propositions and what not. I remember talking about whether to live life by the rules or to live by happiness. It was always great to get into these debates about what life was about and what it meant to each of us. I’m glad she had her goals set high whether it was to go back to school, being in the peace corps, teaching something to a person, or whatever she had on her mind. I remember this one time I wanted to go on lunch with her but we were going at different times as I had already eaten. I saw her passing by and I invited myself to go to Panda Express with her and it was awesome to talk with her about anything that was on our minds at that time. I remember her being the one to bring up horror movies and I didn’t know much about them but I listened to her talk about them. It was a short ride but once we got there I realized I only had about 5 minutes left on my lunch and I wanted to walk back to work but she volunteered to take me back which was real considerate about her. Around this time, I also realized she cared about people but I felt people didn’t care about her. For example, one time she had a breakdown working in toys after staring at pictures of babies and I guess she was still feeling the effects of not being able to handle a child. She had a real desire to be heard and that’s why I felt the need to have conversations that mattered with her. She would discuss problems she was having with her boyfriend and this guy was a recovering addict which made it even worse for her to leave him. Around this time (say in December or so) I started having a small crush on her because I understood her and she understood me. She also this unique look to her that was hard to beat and she was changing her hair color which made her even cooler than I thought. I felt she needed people to talk to as I felt safe around her. But, eventually all good things come to an end and she just ended up quitting one day which I believe was June 21st and I can’t say that she made an impact on me. Ultimately, she taught me something valuable: Whatever a person may look like (whether good or bad) don’t jump the gun and get enthralled in how they look. Get to know the person first and who knows they may have something in common with you. All I have to say, is that no matter how many years pass or how many times I repeat it I will always have the memory of how nice and comforting it was when P!NK was working and the satisfaction I would get whenever her and I would get into a conversation. Thank You P!NK!
Just Another Day... 