Day # 36 7/14/11: That two year experience…

This wasn’t much of a surprise of a day except for the fact that my dad wanted me to go somewhere with him and we also ended up going to coscto with my dad as most of my dad’s fixtures are always on protecting his family. I was going to hang out with one of my buddies but we decided to call off for one more day but I did end up getting my Chris Jericho book in the mail for under 10 bucks which isn’t a bad deal at all, not a bad day at work either, cheers!

It’s like that…what Big Red has given me…

If you really think about it times aren’t that bad
The one that stretches for success will make you glad
Stop playing start praying, you won’t be sad
It’s like that (what?) and that’s the way it is
Huh!-

“It’s like that” by Run-DMC

I say it, I do it, and therefore I am it. I am amazed that for the past three years, I have worked for the Big Red Machine and it has been quite the ride. This past Monday, I watched one of the best wrestlers ever, Triple H, come out and say that he’s seen them all come and go but he’s outlasted them all. I kind of feel like a Triple H as I see no challenges but I still try my best to pass on the knowledge that I have gathered while being there. Whether they like it or not, the more mistakes you make the more experience you’ll gain. I still make my share of mistakes but I try the best to minimize them. I now think back that these past three years I have been with this company and I love the fact that I have learned so much from this place. When I first started working there, I was shy and really moody when it came to work. I believe the reason that I was like this was because I hadn’t really been in a working environment and I was trying my best to impress my peers and bosses. I tried my best to interact with people but I could see that only one guy would give me my chance. This guy was cool and sort of cocky but he took me under his wing. After a few months, I changed my tone and my working style as well. I tried my best to become less stressed and focus on becoming friendlier with people as well. The best gift that the Big Red Machine gave me was the ability to interact with a good pool of talent and observe anywhere from 20-50 different personalities in my time there. I’ve seen guys that love sports and when they love sports, I discuss sports with them as we did our best to get our work done as well as being able to discuss life problems, issues, pay, work, and gossip. I interacted with personalities that taught me a lot and I am thankful for that. I have had my mentors, my brother types, my buddies, and people I am indifferent towards. I am most thankful for the brother types and also my mentors. What I learned from each of these people was that no matter the circumstances, never change. Sometimes, it is necessary to have to change your personality for certain people but whenever I talk to somebody at Big Red, I have learned that it is best to stay relaxed and not to lose your cool. I have given the best I could almost every night, and it doesn’t matter who is working or who I’m working with, I have given it the best no matter the circumstances. Even though I do it less so now, I used to complain a lot that I didn’t have enough money to go hang out with my co-workers and my friends after work and I did end up spending tons of money on food, far trips away to cities here in the bay area, bowling, pool, crazy driving around to these random places, and so forth. I don’t regret many of those trips because I got to understand that some people are sent here to us for a reason, whether it be good or bad. I would get paid and then go deposit my check the next day, which would result on me spending anywhere from 10-40 dollars in one night or multiple nights. I would spend my money because my buddies had the money, so why shouldn’t I have the money. Other times, I would do so to fit in. I gave every last penny just so I could feel good about sharing food with somebody or compromising with a few co-workers in order to play poker or play monopoly. There is something about sharing food with somebody or playing a game with somebody that brings it together that is hard to imagine. I remember numerous times, I would share food with a co-worker of mine and early on when we were getting to know each other, we would go out to eat every night. That is one of the strongest gifts, big red has given me and I miss it at times but  nothing is meant to last forever. Even playing poker taught me that these games are seen as nothing more than a money driven game, with the strive to be the best. I am glad I got to do these things because nothing beats learning and making mistakes. Working with older people, I gave them the benefit the doubt about who they were or what they were about. Two of my mentors there, one of whom still works there, I particularly saw them as sharp and very quick witted. I remember talking to both of them very much and I saw them as wise for the age that they were both doing the job. Here I am, at 20, 21, and 22 and I am hanging with this guy in his mid-30’s and another turning 50, learning every little thing I could. I learned that these guys had years of experience and the relationships I established with these guys had me feeling that human communication is essential in life. Nobody learns this world of experience from just sitting in a room as my friend said a month or two ago. I learned from the guy in his mid-30’s that no matter how old you are, it is never too late to get a new start in life and staying optimistic is a key to staying young and looking young. I learned from my other mentor that we were like father and son in another life (at least from my point of view). He told me how he had lost everything, his family, his daughters, his jobs, his flooded house here in this area, and most of all he told me some of the biggest mistakes I was making at work were serving as a lesson. We got along so well and we still do, as we are so alike in so many things as he still gives me advice, gives me his opinions, and we treat it like no other. Most of all I have learned about success and failure. My Economics teacher in high school said something that still sticks out in my mind and that is you have to realize when you have been beaten. My failures have ranged from failed attempts at trying to get with a number of women there, feuding with co-workers over petty issues, being cited for not performing for how I should have, being called out for small things, and many other things. What I learned from each of these experiences was that it matters a great deal how others perceive you but reaching out to others and asking for feedback is the most important thing you can do as it allows for a test of what you can do in the next time. I would ask people as to why I wouldn’t be recognized enough or why I wasn’t getting the accolades I thought I deserved at the time and I would never get a clear answer. But I asked myself, is it really worth it to keep asking why I wasn’t getting enough love at work? The first time I got my review there, I was discouraged easily as I didn’t get the raise I thought I deserved. I kept my head up and then I realized that giving all this effort had to involve me putting talent over, helping others, being a better communicator, being more of an asset, and also being there when I was needed. I was glad that I did this because working with all this new talent after about a year made me realize that teaching people is something we should all strive for. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, Chris Jericho once said that if you teach somebody ten things and they take one of those and implement one of those then you’ve done your job. I’ve given advice to people, worked with people on different work styles, given motivation, and the energy has to be there for there to be any sort of interaction. I can say that is the one that I’ll take the most with me as I head into my time remaining at Big Red. To end this, I want to give a special shout out to my niece Jazmin as she gave me reason for hope as she is growing pretty fast and I recently saw that she has started doing some walking as she went walking towards my mom.

Stay tuned for the Next blog:

The Elimination Chamber from Oakland this past February 20, 2011

with Pictures:)



Does life suck…?

Everybody wants to rule the world

It must be something we get from birth

One truth is we never learn

-Joe Strummer on “Charlie Don’t Surf”

It’s been a fun week as we approach Thanksgiving but something that I believe we miss these days is to examine life and enjoy the positive of it. I hear people at work and at school sometimes complain about how their life is complicated and how much they dread speaking in front of a crowd at school. One of the things I’ve learned about life in the past couple of years is that we all have flaws and when we complain it is because we are striving to be this perfect person. Everyone makes mistakes and even I have made my share of mistakes but I examine them now and sometimes I laugh about them other times I take it and just apply it to how much I’ve grown from them. For example, two years ago on my way home from school I hit my car against a curb on Highway 85 and I messed up the car pretty bad. I felt like an idiot once I got home because it was raining pretty bad that day and I wasn’t more careful. From there, I tried to be as open and honest with my parents as I could be but of course they were pretty upset. They were glad I wasn’t hurt and my dad and myself ended up getting the car’s kinks fixed up. I learned from that I have to be more cautious when I drive and I also grew to appreciate the support I got from my parents after that as they helped me out immensely with the car itself. I don’t think people really look at life and appreciate all the good things that they may be presented with. Sure, I work in retail and go to community college but from them I’ve been given so many positive moments that they are embedded in my mind as great memories. Going to community college, I’ll always remember the amount of Philosophy classes I took and how much I learned to value how different people view life. It made me strive to be a better person morally and also view life not just from my own perspective but from a metaphysical point of view. I’ve also been able to learn about myself and take part in some fun activities with a few classmates of mine. For example, I remember last year in Psychology of Adjustment, one of older classmates, Matt, was doing a presentation on Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and I took the test and it somehow revealed that I had it. The funny part was I truly enjoyed the back and forth I did with Matt because he kept berating me about how I had it and what was causing it, what triggered it, and so forth and so forth. Things like that make life unique and special and not enough people take school seriously enough to even enjoy the fun parts of it. The important thing is to be able to form some semblance of relationships with classmates because we are all in the process of learning about ourselves. Like my professor said the other day, we are always students in life and it is difficult to escape that. In terms of working in  retail, it’s no secret that I wouldn’t look at it as the best job ever, but what I’ve taken away from it is to be able to help everyday people like myself. I wouldn’t consider the people I work with as friends, but the ones that I’ve helped out along the way make me proud that I at least put in an effort to teach them something. For example, two people whom I consider two excellent workers are this girl that I trained way back when in February who wasn’t the best person to communicate with at first. Another person was this guy that I helped out when he first started and I didn’t think much of him at first but he ended up working out as a great asset. I’ve learned from watching Chris Jericho’s Breaking the Walls Down documentary that if you teach ten things to a person and they take one of those things and they implement them, you’ve done well. I think that is true because you have to let someone grow on their own and it is important to keep teaching. We have to appreciate the opportunities we are given as very often we take the negative of a situation and that becomes our focus rather than what was originally thought it was. There are times when people complain that they are tired which I do from time to time but then I think about it. I examine as to why I may be tired, if I kept myself busy at school or at work or at the gym I think back as to the positive things I accomplished at that time. I went to the gym last Thursday and I had an intense but fun workout. Of course, working out for an hour will tire you yet I thought about how good it felt to get some exercise, how good I felt mentally, things I was looking forward to, and the reactions I get when people ask me about feeling good. Always remember to be proud of who you are, not of what you could be! Till next time.